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Relationship With Jesus 

"We don't know what the future holds but we know the one that holds it."

A life with God is constantly being refined in different areas of your character. When you think you've learned a lesson, you quickly realize that there is soooo much more you can learn in that area of your life and grow in. For instance I thought that I was pretty good at making decisions and then committing to them. But in these past few months there has been a lot of uncertainty on which direction to take and not only say that I will do something but then walk it out right after. With small ones like setting up a classroom and doing every part of what that holds. Not just the parts that I enjoy but also the not so fun parts. But also big ones like do I go on outreach with this school, do I help lead this next February school, do I keep these relationships or do I move on. With decisions like these, questions like; How do I know I'm making the right decisions and its not myself and my insecurities pushing me away from people and situations? Am I doing these things based off pride and Gods teaching me things about my character? It felt like any decision I was trying to make had both a positive and negative outcome. I was so stuck because I thought and totally believed one thing but then when I tried to walk it out there was so much hurt and pain. Is the pain temporary for later breakthrough or am I just creating my own pain that was never supposed to be there? There was such a war in my mind over what is truth. It was to the point where I couldn't eat anything and I couldn't relate or talk with anyone. I felt so isolated and the whole time I was trying to tell myself that God is good and he will help me in this season but all I could hear is how much I have been messing up and nothing could fix these situations and I'm hopeless. I would cry out to God to help me and show me the truth in these situations and to come deliver me from this time. But I would hear and see nothing but my situation. 

I slowly started to come out of these thoughts and emotions until finally I was able to act and be like myself again. The thing that was so hard though was that I had no idea why or what happened. But also, I didn't want to walk out of this without knowing why this happened or what I was supposed to learn. So I was wrestling with the thought of all of this just happening for no reason. People would tell me what they thought it was but none of it made sense. I still have no idea what all of this was and why I went through it but I'm trusting God will reveal what I'm supposed to do and learn in this time and it's not my job to make anything happen. So I guess its To Be Continued... 

The School (Beach to Bush)

With the school we are on week 6 and this coming week will be going on our first road trip for 3 weeks straight. While on the road we will have the opportunity to do church services and help with service projects! We also just got our outreach locations and I'll be co-leading a team to the middle east! If you want to know specifics message me and I'll let you know. But we have a team of 5 (including the leaders) and I'm really stoked about our team! This school has been amazing to watch the students grow in their faith and see God move in their lives. This past week we had Holy Spirit and we got to see legs grow out and backs healed! There is such a zeal with this school to go out and show God to people, but not by preaching at them but by showing them the love and hand of God. I'm expecting to share more stories with you guys about the things we will see God doing in lives of others after this road trip! I'm really enjoying the relationships and people I have met in this time and have been so encouraged by all of them. 

Thank You!

Thank you guys for taking time to stay updated with me and if you have any questions about what I've shared or want to know more about specific things please message me and I'd love to talk with you guys! Each day I'm learning more and more to live like Jesus and honestly none of this could be done without your support!! Love you all, God bless!