D E C I S I O N S

This past month I have made the decision to go back to YWAM Brisbane and staff the October Music, Art, Dance and Photography School. In order to do this I will have to return to Australia by August 20th. Now I know a lot of you are probably confused because previously I told people I was planning on going back in January.  Since becoming a Christian I've learned one crucial thing about God, He ruins plans (for the better). And by ruins I mean absolutely destroys them (for the better) and then puts you in a situation where only he can get you through it.

THE ORIGINAL PLAN

This is what I thought was going to happen when I returned home from YWAM in May. I would work at a couple of summer camps, nanny for the same family I have for the past few years; and then come Fall, I would find a job to earn money until my departure in January. At that time, I would have staffed a school called "Beach to Bush", where I would have led a DTS team while backpacking along the east coast of Australia. In addition, I was looking forward to being mentored by a Leader whom I looked up to and know would have furthered my knowledge of what it means to be a man of God. But of course...God ruins plans (for the better).

THE REVELATION

Obviously, the original plan makes the most sense. I would have worked, earned and saved money and taught at the school I wanted to! But as the summer went on I would continually ask God "is this what I'm suppose to do" and I would hear nothing back. So I figured it wasn't the right time. He just wanted me to focus on the summer camp I was staffing. 

As the camp was coming closer to an end I would ask the same question over and over, "Am I suppose to go back in February to staff the Beach to Bush school?" And over and over, I would hear nothing but silence. I was so frustrated from not hearing anything that I didn't want to spend time with God. After about two months of this confusion and frustration I still felt the same way towards God, but something in me knew this attitude and way of thinking would get me absolutely no where. I changed the question and instead of saying "is this what I'm suppose to do" (like Gods a magic eight ball), I simply said "God lead me where I will get to know you most!" Once I asked that, God simply spoke, "October MAD"! My heart dropped! That was in less than one month?! Feeling overwhelmed, I instantly tried to reason my way out. I was thinking there is no way God has called me to something this big. In order to make this work, I would need to raise about $4,000 in 3 weeks and by the end of 18 months, a total of about $16,000. All this without having had time to prepare. So I was sitting there, sick to my stomach thinking; "God how can I do this"? He straight up said, "you can't...but if you trust and believe in Me and take the steps of faith, then you will see the finances come in." At that point I knew God was in control and this was my purpose in life! I was created to take on things that are bigger than I ever thought I could handle so God's character could come to life through me! 

My Advice

If you're bored with your faith, then maybe it's because you are not challenging yourself and asking God what he has called you to do. God isn't telling us what we HAVE to do, but what we SHOULD do because he knows us best! He knows our heart and what we desire. Everything in this world  (money, cars, school, even your job) will eventually pass. We can all agree that we will not live forever and the things that you have now will not last! Don't put all your time on Earth towards stuff you will eventually not care about. I encourage you to put your time into something bigger than yourself, something that will last forever! It won't be easy, but nothing that's easy is ever worth it. I challenge you to take a step of faith towards God and make Him show up! He see's where you are and also knows where you could be! It's you who has to make that decision, and it's worth it! 

Even though it is going to be a challenge to raise the money, I know in my heart I will be going to Australia because this is the path God has chosen for me to make Him most known!

Prayer & Support

Please pray that God reveals more details to me on my upcoming BLS. Also, pray that my relationship with God grows stronger everyday. For the students that I will be leading, pray that their hearts will be open to receiving God's word! 

I honestly can't do any of this without your support! I ask that you pray for me through my journey, and if you are able to donate click on the link located at the bottom of the page. This will take you to my website. 

Please feel free to message me on facebook or email me at Cfield.photography@gmail.com with any questions. I will be gone the week of August 4th at a summer camp in Wisconsin so I may not be able to get back to you until I return.  I love you all and thank you again for all your prayers and support!

My website is:

http://connorfield.weebly.com

Blessings,

Connor Field